And so began the medication ...
Pentacle 800 mg tablets
I'm going strong when I was upset because I feel alone in front of what I'm living, maybe a heart condition, maybe diabetic, maybe another cronhiano could understand what it means to take 3 tablets a day fixed for months ...
I am a bit 'sad because what I feel inside is hard to explain to others, from outside and I always have to hide everything behind a smile behind a sympathetic attitude and cheerful, even when all hell breaks loose me in the gut, even when I run to the bathroom, even when I feel bad because I eat fried stuff I should not even see from a distance ...
I'm slowly and stopped drinking coffee, and the next goal and say "hello hello" to my passion for smoking, in the future will eliminate the beer, wine, alcohol, and so in toto on until the dragon that spits in my belly will not cease to exist.
I want to go back one year, two years, run by doctors and say, look at that after a few months will develop what I have ... I would like to send
Cattinara shit, indeed Dr. Antonio Vram, because he was not able to give me a colonoscopy should be, I would send to hell the laboratory Cattinara because they have not been able to find blood in the stool, is seen loud and clear picture of my intestine and that many times I showed it to my mum: I did it with blood and mucus tend to tell me that every doctor visit.
God damn I want to talk to and ask why me, wondering why I did spend some months of shit.
I would like to take a pen and paper and make a nice lineup of what has happened to me last year, a very heavy year, which does not wish it on anyone.
This family has had to touch the bottom of every point of view ... and I tell you honestly, I felt alone, truly alone: \u200b\u200bfor better or worse everyone was committed to stand next to my grandmother and my mother ...
Many times I have been quiet, I lied about the "how are you?" When his stomach was burning and even a popsicle would put out the flames. Many times I said I feel good and maybe your ass on fire for the many times that I had been in the closet.
And now? now I hope that everything is finished. Soon birth and close permanently this year shit is to be deleted from my life ... a year because of illness, bereavement, leave ...
